The Start of Something…
WHO AM I?
I am someone who has travelled deeply into self-awareness to try and understand what makes me happy, what holds me back, what kind of programming and thought patterns occur in the background, and how I can be the best version of myself possible.
WHY AM I HERE?
I am here to empower others to do the same. Look deep into the recesses of their lives, minds, and souls to know themselves more completely and live as their truest selves.
WHY DOES IT MATTER?
Why are we here? What is our time on earth for? Regardless of what you believe, whether it be that we are beings that are here for a short span of time only to go into nothingness or we are re-incarnated thousands of times, I am here to empower you to enjoy more of the time you have now. If we go through life unconsciously, we become stuck in what we think is the norm. What if there was more? What if we could be happier, live fuller lives, and truly enjoy what we do? Wouldn’t it be worth it to try?
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
My path to consciousness started at Wichita State University. A school that I attended for bowling. Yup, you heard that correctly, bowling. Because of my coaches Gordon Vadakin and Mark Lewis, I slowly and ever so slightly began becoming more aware of my self. I was introduced to Dr. Dean Hinitz and after one encounter my deepest and most unconscious/hidden parts of myself were exposed. And also, this is the time when I first read The Way of the Peaceful Warrior.
As I slowly started thinking I was "all that" for doing this work, I was getting more and more interested in yoga. I decided to take a yoga teacher training course. The first time I felt like I had barely scratched the surface of my foray into self-discovery.
Fast forward five years and I re-connect with a dear friend that I actually went to Wichita with. At this time we discovered we both were travelling down similar pathways through very different experiences. She pulled me in deeper…and there I was introduced to someone whom I consider to be living in another realm. She was the catalyst for rapid transformation (even though my ego felt I was going very slowly). I became more in tune with my self and my deepest, darkest places.
So here I am, standing as vulnerably as possible at the present moment, navigating these crazy recesses and places in my life, mind, and soul, and attempting to do it with light-hearted curiosity and acceptance.
Sometimes I feel like a phony as I think to myself, who am I to be coaching people? I don’t have the credentials, I haven’t experienced significant trauma or gone through addiction or tragic loss…how could I possibly help? As I travel deeper and deeper and peel back more layers, I am beginning to appreciate my worth and value and understand what I bring into this world. I am here to save the planet and help bring people who want to work with me closer into consciousness more frequently.
I’ve been a perfectionist, a chameleon, a self-deprecating, people-pleasing someone who just wanted to be loved and noticed. I wore a delicately crafted mask, just good enough so no one could see the real flawed me so that I would never hear criticism or judgment or hear anyone tell me I wasn’t good enough. Because without me knowing, that is what I truly believed and I was trying to convince everyone around me that I was worthy when really the only person I needed to convince was myself. Slowly, I am turning inward to receive what I want and so desperately needed. Turning back to the person I truly am.