Struggling…

I no longer understand where my pendulum of life is supposed to lie…where my balance is. 

What am I doing?  

Every single action creates an impact on this planet…how do I continue living my life in balance with the planet?

I take flights, I drive, I bowl, I play guitar, I buy clothes, I buy food…

Where do I go from here?

Quickly going crazy…

How do I live my life and do it sustainably? 

I’m driving myself insane…

I’m using a computer…

I’m not doing enough.

How can my individual actions contribute to sustainability when I go to places in the United States and see what they’re doing there?

Yet, I cannot seem to let this go, I can no longer turn a blind eye.

Where is my compass, Grandmother Willow?  At least there is still some humour…

I realize that this is the next phase of my evolution, or awakening shall we say. 

I know I need to wake up to my intentions and my actions. 

I need more information to make decisions from an informed place. 

I cannot hope to affect real change until I look deeply inward…and connect deeply inward...

Every action, all the impacts, I feel like I need/want a Matrix download (1999 movie, in case that reference wasn't clear), but I also know that anything worth obtaining does not come with instant gratification. 

So let’s get to work…